I wrote this several years back!
I will describe one of my biggest battles in dying to my old life and having the Christ take full control.
Until today, I was still one of those children of the onion. Let me explain.
Today one huge stronghold of my control over that of Christ’s fell today.
Any area where our lives are not under the loving control of Christ is an area where the demonic will have its spidery legs wrapped around our soul, health, wealth, and body.
I call it spidery, because God has revealed demons as spiders. Spiders do not have to move much. They are simply there. They suck the life out of you. They roost on top of the sin which you love. They slowly destroy you from this beach head of sin. From there, they weave their spidery webs in the recesses of your soul. Their long legs wrap themselves into the subconscious areas, and by them, create fortresses of hostility towards God, all in your mind.
The work of demons is obscure. Demons are onion lovers. They hide in onions. These onions are their cocoons. These types of onions are sins. As the layers of sin peel off, as that of an onion, the demon spider is finally exposed, and Christ expels it out from your life. At the core of every onion called sin, there is always a demon. He is the last one to come out, and only when you have pealed the onion, with the knife of repentance. You can never get to the demon, until you get to the sin. You can never get to the sin as long as you love it. As long as the onion is there, the demon is right in there, too. The only knife that works is that of repentance.
Demons make you feel that you are the one with the problem. You are the one who is sick. You are the one who is anxious. When in fact it’s his attack from the outside. He will wound you by means of the spidery legs which work from the shadowy cocoon of sin’s onion.
This well hid spider deceives you. Its deceptions create a false identity which you embrace. The identity could be to become famous, or rich, take up a cause, or extol your personal rights, or worse still, to disobey God.
It could be a need to stay sick, in self-pity, to be a martyr, a victim, one who is offended, depressed or unable to forgive. These breed negative attention. Others attend to you because you are a victim, a martyr, or someone who is ill.
This identity becomes a fortress, a citadel in your mind. You live and die for it. I was still holding to a false identity. Worse still, I was wishing for this identity, and asking God to make me into the person who owned it. This false person had become me. We call this a pseudo fantasy, a false imagination. We idolize our imaginations and fantasies and what we create in them.
The only real identity is Christ in me. Every other identity must die. Every other identity bows its knee to Christ. Demons only respect Christ. They don’t respect me, or my false fantasies. They don’t respect any other identity, except the one which Christ has, and which is Christ.
So as long as you love any sin, remember that it is an onion, which has a demon at its core and which is still preying on you. You are still the children of the onion.